Monday, July 29, 2024

July 23, 2024-July 29, 2024-Week 64-Loma Nueve

Well it's getting official, the countdown is truly on. I received my MyPlan yesterday, basically it is a return plan for how we are going to stay converted after the mission that the church has made to help returned missionaries. This means I now have 99 days left as a missionary...It feels pretty surreal, especially since my best friend, Olivia, just got home from her mission on Thursday.


But there is still lots of work to be done! We have some really good friends that are progressing, and we should have 7 people baptized on Saturday -- a whole family, and the kids of a less active family who are coming back to activity. So basically, heaven is rejoicing because whole families are advancing on the covenant path! It should be an exciting week. 

We also have started teaching one family, where all the adults are members of the church, but way inactive. Yet, all the kids have never been baptized and they pay a lot of attention, and answer our questions, and even came to church yesterday at 8am (there were parades starting at 10am, so we had to start church early). Truly, it is a such a miracle! We invited all six of them to be baptized, and the grandma who is a member was sitting there was hilarious. She was like "this is NOT a game! if you want to be baptized, that means making promises with God." and then she proceeded to point at every single one of them asking "do you want to be baptized?" x6. And then she said to one of her granddaughters "y este signficia que no puedes andar con Lis. Ella es maliante (and this means that you can't hang out with Lis. She is malicious)" hahaha. So we should be having a lot of good people entering into covenants with God in these next two weekends! Pray for family Reik, Herrera, and Diaz!

We also have a friend named Modesto who came to church last Sunday but couldn't this week. He randomly contacted ME when I was with Hermana Lunt in an exchange, and has been reading in the book of mormon. He hasn't had a job or food for a while, and as missionaries, we can't donate or give money. But, we were thinking about it and we have all this food in our house as "an emergency kit" but we were told to eat it or chuck it. We weren't planning on eating it, so we sent it with a member to leave at his house. We thought it was fine in the end, because it's really not our money, is tithing money or fast offerings, so shoot me if I am wrong.  In the end, it was really special to hear his grateful, tear filled voice on the phone call, saying that we were angels who had helped them and that he will never forget this act of charity the Church of Jesus Christ did for them. Even if he doesn't get baptized, this will always be engraved on his mind, and I am content with that.

Here is a spiritual thought I wrote down in my journal:

"I've continued my studies about grace. I have been thinking a lot about it. It truly is a gift from God. Because no matter what or "after all we can do" (2 Nephi 25:23), we could never ever raise ourselves from the dead, forgive us of our sins, become exalted and bring us once again to God's presence. We do not "earn" heaven. We are here to LEARN it. That's why He gives us the commandments and the scriptures and prayer and fasting -- to give us a taste of this celestial joy while we are in this telestial terrain. Entering into His rest and His kingdom doesn't demand that we merely check every box on the list of requirements like we so often think. It is His grace that allows us to return (2 Nephi 2:6-8). His grace is neither the plan B. The whole point of His plan is that we access, use, and appreciate the Atonement of Jesus Christ, it is not the back up plan when we fall short. They rejoice when we depend on the Atonement of Jesus Christ. It is like if we were to give our child a gift. If they neglect it, we feel confused and as if our money was wasted, amidst the act of generosity. But, when we see them using the toy, laughing, with a smile on their face, we likewise feel this joy that they transmit. I imagine that is how Heavenly Father and Christ feel when we humble ourselves and use and depend on Their grace. No matter our personal skills or talents that we may have, it pales in comparison to the excellency of the magnitude of perfection our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ have. Therefore, we should STRIVE to depend on them. Pray humbling and constantly for His grace. And then live gratefully in a spirit of cheer by keeping Their loving, and refining commandments". I know this to be true because I have felt in my life. I felt Their grace to do things I otherwise would not be able to do on my own. I know this is true for every child of God who comes to Christ, and pleas for His help and depends on Him. 


I love you all! See His hand and His grace and share His love with all you see!

Cpec early morning in Tocumen

Family Home Evening over zoom with the district/zone

Exchanges with Hermana Quiñonez

Ending our intercambio (exchanges) with hermana Quiñonez and Alvarado



Parade celebrating 53 years of San Miguelito

Recent convert Roberto acosta

Pday eating Krispy Kreme



Monday, July 22, 2024

July 16, 2024-July 22, 2024-Week 63-Loma Nueve

This week the principle was restated and emphasized over and over in my mind: God loves our limitations and will never penalize us for our faults, weaknesses, and shortcomings. Here's two quick examples...

1) Gelatina helado 
So after a long afternoon of walking around, trying to find people the part member families in our area, we sat down to eat some jello with ice cream, what a weird Panamanian combo?? Anyways, we sat down, resting from walking lots of hills in the Panama sun, and someone comes up to US! AND CONTACTS US! crazy. We get talking and she's a member, and no one else is in her family. God knows that we would be hungry, tired, a little discouraged but He also knew that we were devoted, and committed, and faithful. So He helped us out. And He always will.
2) Teen mom 
So way back when I had 4 months I trained the amazing Hermana Lunt! Well once again, I am her hermana leader. We got to have an exchange this week. And wow!! Beauty from ashes. I remember crying a lot that transfer and being beyond stressed. And more than anything, I have always felt bad that I gave her a bad welcome to the mission and bad training. But seeing her and how much she has grown in the last 10 months shows me how much the Lord takes into account our limitations. He knew back then I barely knew how to be a missionary or how to speak Spanish and to trust in Him. But He knew I was trying. I see now that she has just BLOSSOMED. She is so diligent. Such a good contacter. Full of faith. A 10/10 missionary. 

Moral of the story, when we give our life to God to be the author of our story, He makes so much more out of our lives than we ever could!!

So much garbage on the street everywhere

Hermana Christensen and Smith stayed the night for their zone conference the next day

Morning cpec with the sister's in Cabuya

Hermana Alvarado y Hermana Quiñonez

Hermana Eli


My package came!


Exchange with Hermana Lunt




His hat made me laugh

This is a billboard sign for a part of our area where we served

Braiding Hermana Lunt's hair



Ending our exchange in the metro

Visiting a less active named Marisol

Eating McDonald's this morning with the Hermanas of Penonome



My mission leader's son came home from his mission

Bowling as a district and I won with 153!

hermana Eli and Nieves





Monday, July 15, 2024

July 9, 2024-July 15, 2024-Week 62-Loma Nueve

 Hey what's up!! I didn't really want to send this to everyone but just to my family.

Here's a little life update for my part...
I have a latina comp, Hermana Bran. She's from El Salvador. She's very kind and she is good at finding the joy in the little things. We have very different life backgrounds, and it makes me count my MANY blessings. I don't know how the Lord let's us have such good life's and parents and families and the gospel, but I know He gives us it to share it! 

I had some conferences this week, a leadership conference and a zone conference. The first with the leaders in the mission and then with probably about 60 missionaries for zone conference. I love how the spirit touches our hearts differently. I think the lessons that I took away were to just remember the goals I had set
1) to have charity. Charity really is all the attributes of Christ in one. That's why it is the hardest thing because being charitable is putting on Jesus Christ. Being charitable is not judging, expecting the best of others, being patient, etc. The biggest challenge right now is my comp and just taking a step back and choosing her and loving her instead of being so focused on the work. At the start if the transfer this is all that came to my mind is to never have a regret and put my comp first. Sometimes it's really hard!!! But I know God never sends a challenge we can't handle with Him. Sometimes I just feel insufficient to help her with her traumas and the hardships of her life. It's really overwhelming and I feel like I can't keep my covenants to carry other peoples burdens. But I have been praying a lot and just reassuring myself that God will not penalize me for the other people I could have helped baptize because I am putting my companion first. 

Choosing Charity: That Good Part


2) to enjoy every moment. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in the numbers or the lessons or the time or all the things we aren't doing. But we need to remember all we DO have, all we ARE doing and all that we are BECOMING. I am working on being grateful and seeing all the good. Just smiling in every moment. 

I was able to talk to my president in passing and he just reassured me of what I had felt. But sometimes doing the Lord's will is so dang hard. But over and over again I learn that it is so much better. I feel overwhelming love for my companion, and great joy that I can be the friend she needed. Being a covenant keeper is demanding and hard and I cry a lot and am dead tired, but I also know He is the source of my ultimate strength. The work is slow and much different than how I would do it, but I must pick my battles. I chose to love my companion and love this transfer. I choose to be a follower in this transfer. I choose to smile and love and keep going!! 

Just for grammy, the good looking Elder sat next to me at conference;) so that's a confidence booster! We also were given pupusas one day and they were so good, and our neighbor gave us free McFlurries (icecream from McDonalds). My companion also makes lots of smoothies, and there is an older woman in my ward who reminds me of my aunt Marsha. Life is good and God is in the details. 

Basically I miss you so big!! 

THE VIEWS

Leadership conference 7/9/24

Hermana Bran and Keeler and Roberts on our way to leadership conference

Hermana Shirley

All the sisters in leadership with sister Forsberg

Sisters Christensens

Me, Hermana Robert's, Hermana Bran, Hermana Christensen, Hermana Smith. All the American comps that Hermana Bran has been with


We have the challenge to read the Book of Mormon in this transfer and focus on the Savior and His atonement (notice our picture is shaped like a heart)

Hermana Bran

Me, hermana Bran, elder Jensen, elder Santos Vasquez, elder Borja the leadership of the Panama zone

Hermana Shirley, Rhodes, and Me

hermana Zapata and hermana Shirley

Me and Hermana Rhodes

Elder Reynolds, elder Santos Vasquez, and hermana Rhodes. We had lunch every Saturday in David


This one's for hermana Rhodes

Arroz con leche


Zone Conference 7/12/24

Zone conference with my child, Hermana Lunt




The Panama Zone



My comp bestie Hermana Bran

Hermanas of the Panama Zone, Hermana Castellano, Hermana Lunt, me, Hermana Bran



Eating pupusas

Smelly garbage put here in San Miguelito

Baptism of Andrea Escoples




Hermana Flor Días who reminds me of grammy and Marsha. It was a little piece of heaven to have her come up to me and talk to me and give me a hug

We went to Omar park for p-day


Me and Hermana Lunt


Hermana Bran

Flowers in our hair

Hermana pday and painting!

Drinking Boba tea